Dreams of the past

I dreamt.
I dreamt of our friendship.
A once upon a time kind of moment.

Emotionally burdened and defeated and yet; there you were to cheer me up.
Some emotions don't go away. Some are hard to replace with others.

Some people mean more to oneself then they believe.


I know it'll never be the same.
Until I find someone else. Someone I can open up to and trust.
When I one day stop shielding myself.

Trends.

I've noticed a lot of trends in this blog as it silently drifts through time after time.
I think about you a lot in Spring and Summer. Enough where I feel writing about it.

I think about how different we are...the things I wouldn't do with you or would do with you.
Some games that I would find myself enjoying playing with you.

I miss you. I really do. As a friend who I gave everything and trusted my secrets and emotions to.
I can't help but think over and over that I am stubborn and can't let it go.

Your smile and happiness brings an abundance of happiness to me.
I wish I could see you. To see your smile. To see your happiness.
Without suffer, without despair.

Sometimes....

I am happy and yet I feel the emptiness.
The joy of sharing an emotional connection.

The warmth and assurance of a significant other.
A smile so pleasing and warming that melts away all the pain and suffering.